still missing her.... so much...

2006-12-10T17:44:00.000-08:00

WorK LiFe!!
i hav been working from the start of the month til now.. its seemed to be pretty long but i realised tht i hav only work for 10 days... i worked 12 hours everyday night from 8pm to 8 am.. At first, i was thinking of quiting as my body is not used to sleeping in the day... But after i endured for 3 days, everything starts to be fine and i can feel tht my body is adapting to a completely different kind of life... The work isnt tough but u hav to be used to sleeping in the day if not u will fall ill easily... One bad thing is tht the workplace sux... Almost everyone working there fall ill... Including me, since working there i had illnesses like vomiting, cold, flu, fever, sore throat, serious cough and lost of voice.. Its really bad but for the sake of earning money wat can i do?? haha....
Recently, in the workplace a saw a gal... A gal who dressed up like a jap... i told one of the guys there tht she really looks good and as a result a rumour started and i was sabotage... In the end someone got her no. and gave it to me.. Actually i don feel like accepting but after having a second thought, i think there isn't any loss if i accept it... After saving her no. , i message her yesterday and she did reply... But from her reply i noe tht she seemed to be replying unwillingly.. Honestly, i don have any ideas like becoming her stead or something.. i jus simply wanted to be her friend thts all.. But i think becos of the stupid rumour, things seemed to have became more complicated than it should have... WAt to do??? HAi... Today, i dont think i will message her becos it seemed quite weird to message a gal who u didn't even talk to.. So i tell myself i will find a chance and take initiative to talk to her so tht it wont be so weird when messaging her.. I did ask myself if i was interested in her, but feeling tells me tht i only wanted to be a friend of hers.. At the same time, i was reminded of the one i haven forget and give up on... Yes, its her,clara.. Though i haven seen her before and though she is not tht beautiful, she seemed to have a deep impact on my heart.. I'm serious.. i know many ppl will think tht i am jus kidding and joking when i said i like clara... haha.. But from the start i know it isn't a joke... i don know how long i will take to forget her... i don wan the memories of her to be gone.. But i am afraid i will really forget her one day because i have not seen her before... hai.. WAt to do again..?? No matter wat, i am sure i wont regret to sacrifice my time, brain cells and future for her...

2006-11-21T04:35:00.000-08:00

So fast and so Shiok...
Finally Os are over... time to enjoy... these two days i realy enjoyed myself.. so shiok.. HAha.. Yesterday i went Johor to shop... The things there are really cheap... CHeap until i used up all my money.. haha.. tht is the first time i went abroad without a parent accompany... really cool... i seemed to have grow up.,.. maybe more rebellious... watever it is, i bought my desired items like shoe and jeans....today, i went to dye my hair early in the morning.. actually i wanted to dye and highlight but in the end i dyed and rebonded my hair... haha.. never imagine my hair or fringe rather to be so straight.. Not so used to it at the moment though... i also went to find jobs with gerald, chung yin and boon but only gerald and me are looking for jobs...we asked nike shop, G2000, toys'rus, carrefour and in-base... i got interviewed today, it was like a oral practise.. haha... The person made some positive comment after tht n he said tht in a few days time i will be contacted if i am applicable... Oh ya almost forget, swee sin saw chung yin and me today but i never saw her... on the other hand , i saw clarence talking on the phone but he never saw me.. haha.. wat a joke.. fortunately i met hakim and he saw us... tomorrow going for another interview again.. now i think i should be worrying on which job to choose... hai... so vex..

2006-10-03T03:12:00.000-07:00

prelim results out...
Finally, my prelim results are out... i did not perform extremely well but at the same time not very bad too.. i did its my best shot for all subjects except english for these 2 years... still, i was not very impressed when ever i was reminded of my english grade.... i got a C6 for my english... i did not know why.. Usually i got tht grade when the passage or compre is very difficult but for this prelim where i think most people scored B4, i actually remain at my C6 grade, wat a disappointment... i dont really noe wat went wrong this time.. i kept asking myself is it because this time round i did not have the luck tht i incurred to me for the previous times or because my english standard is pretty poor... to be more pragmatic and realistic, i chose not to decieve myself and forced myself to accept the fact tht my english standard is very poor... So wat can i do to improve my language?? anyone reading this post can spare me some advice?? i have been reading newspapers and doing compre and compo practices for the past 10 months... So wat else can i do?? Kinda give up hope but inorder to pursue the course tht i wanted to go, i must perservere to the day after my Os...
No matter wat i did improve for this prelim.. Very satisfied for all subjects except english.. I got 11 and 14 for my L1R4 and 5 respectively... hope i can do better for my Os especially for english.. Good luck everyone!!!

El- C6
Mt-A2
e-maths- A1
A-maths-A2
Bio-A1
science-A1
CH-B3
Total-490/700(70%)

2006-09-03T06:36:00.000-07:00

wat a day...
today early in the morning i went to tuition.. Before i board the bus i reminded myself tht my bus card left only a few cents or zero dollar... i wasn't too sure and i checked if i got coins.. unfortunately, i couldn't find any coins... I was wondering whether should i go back home and take some coins or try my luck.. In the end, i decided to try on luck... While i was waiting, i told myself may be i can change with some passengers for some coins... But i found myself bringing only some 10 dollar notes and nothing else.. but still i wanted to try my luck.. the bus arrived, i board on and hold my wallet on the ez-link machine.. "ti, ti, ti, ti, ti" it went.. my heart sank... i immediately asked all passengers if they have any change.. but when they saw my ten dollars note, all their head went shaking around.. WAT TO DO NEXT?? i wasn't very sure.. the bus was still stooping to wait for other passengers... A pretty w0man board on the bus and i asked her for change.. she said ten dollars ah then she took out a stack of 2 dollar notes.. Oh my god!! how am i going to pay the bus fare with 2 dollar note?? i told myself forget it... And i alighted the bus.. the moment when i got off, it was not a feeling of embarrassment as i would expect... Instead, i felt tht heaven has deserted me and felt quite disappointed... i went home and grabbed some coins and went down again.. i saw another bus passing the bus stop... Oh my... i told myself" Am i tht unlucky? just now no coins now miss bus.. Nope.. i wasn't going to let heaven play on me today.. " after tht i ran as fast as i could to the next bus stop.. i knew tht i wouldn't have time to catch up but i just tried... Finally, some luck came to me.. the bus halted in a zebra crossing.. I knew tht heaven has not really neglected me... i grab the opportunity and ran to the next bus stop... i managed to got on the bus.. although i was panting when i was on the bus but i didn't regret... The rest of the day is still alright... the morale of the story is if u are not a bus-pass holder, always bring extra coins with you..

Remember,god will not desert you when you don give up on yourself..

2006-08-25T07:38:00.000-07:00

In a LOST...
After all the class tests now i am quite lost and lazy on what to revise and continue for my revision.. i know tht i am going to have a physics test on monday so i am going to study physics on sunday but what about tmr?/ i don noe what to continue... i have revised chem to chp 16 but not sure whether wan to carry on chem or get on with maths and humanities..
tomorrow feel like going out again.. Don feel like staying at home and study...
Today went to tampines and play soccer.. Not in a very good form today.. After the games, everyone of us are completely fatigue... cant imagine myself to have the ability to post today...

2006-08-11T06:53:00.000-07:00

less stress... but soon back to the life i shoud bear for 3 months..

these few days not as stress becos never study.. but i will start again in 2 days time... back to tht spirit.. after i learned tht i got B3 for my chinese Os, i told myself its time to wake up for chinese.. now i have to manage my time well.. i am prepare for the 3 months long challenge to see words and facts everyday... wish everyone good luck for ur Os...

2006-08-04T09:06:00.000-07:00

Long holiday...
Next week we will be having a long holiday.. YEAH!!.. actually it is starting from today becos we only have lesson on monday and friday for these 9 days.. how cool.. these few days i am completely broke... Bought bag and shoe.. Next have to buy team jersey... hai... think i will have to bear the pain of starving for the next few weeks... However, its still worth it.. For my team at least...
today i went to buy my school shoe... den i went queensway to see team jersey... but in the process of going to queensway something happened.. and tht is tht my friends who supposedly agreed to go previously, went back their words as usual.. But this time round i really got fed up.. Only ashiq and irfaan fulfilled their promises by meeting me and gerald to see the team jersey.. the others made me very disappointed... hai.. i guess we are really not a team yet.. becos there is no full coorperation and team spirit i see in the members except ashiq and faan... Luckily we haven buy the jersey.. but i am still considering whether to buy or not...Yes its true tht we have the team spirit and inspiration during matches which allow us our victories of 80% at any court... But thts not enough to be called a team... a team must have tht kind of spirit even when u are not in a match too.. therefore i think every member of the team need to understand tht point before we can really address ourselves as a team... hai.. of course i truly hope to have a team like this during matches... As they are the players whom i can learn from and improve myself.. and also i feel honoured to be guided by our captain to-be, ashiq... The only obstacle tht is blocking us is not strong opponent,,, but ourselves... the others really need to improve on they passion for the team... but at this moment, i am pretty disappointed with some of my friends...
Lets talk about my teachers...
EL- a bit naggy but still fine..
physics- i think its the best of all my teachers becos she understands us...
history- very fun lesson to be in as there are videos to watch and different activities every week
social studies- boring teacher with boring lesson tht i don understand any thing..
Bio- lessons have been rather boring this year compared to last year,,
e-maths- slack and only blame us for our poor results..
a-maths- understanding also but sometime mood swing..
mother tongue- quite hardworking but in the end still failed to make us pay attention to class.. becos of her effort, i never sleep in her class..
chem/ form teacher- hai.. unreasonable, more strict than discipline master and don recognise our other talents except our academic results..

i hope my friends understand the meaning of being part of a team by this week... thanks for reading my blog.. if u wish to tag, leave ur real name there.. don try to hide ur name or use other people's name since u have the guts to tag.. thankx..

2006-07-20T04:44:00.000-07:00

Life so Uncool....
... i found tht i hav lost everything in my life... wat i hav found meaningful in life are gone... they only reunite with me after the o... i hate it.. if i really die in any of the moment from now to the start of o, i think i wont be too sad becos it is actually a kind of relieve for taking away my stress and unhappiness.. i heard people say be4... if u live in this earth, u must have a target and something u find meaningful to u in life.. if u don, you are just physically alive but mentally u are dead... Now... my only target is to score well for the Os... To me, tht is not life.. Tht is no life... I hav lost my soccer life... My happiness of freedom... and long ago a gal tht never noe me... i am left with my friends... And of cos pile and pile of books and notes.... Anyone like this type of life?? It is a path tht everyone in this country must take... i don want to regret for not studying hard enough after getting back my results for the Os... No choice..
in life u just hav to cope with the stress and pressure exerts on you, whether it is man-made pressure or nature pressure... But i have an advice for those who are sick of study but have to go on like me... and tht is only perseverance and determination will in the end decides the result... i feel like giving at any second of my lfe now.. But i noe tht if i were to really give up, i would be a failure for life... i completely agree with wat people say... In life it is not result tht matter but the process... i believe if i perservere and study very hard but in the end i did not do very well for my Os, i wont be sad at all becos i am sure the process has made me a better person than those who did better and less hardworking as me... I guarantee soon you will find me as the most hardworking student... SOON.... I can feel tht...

2006-07-07T20:47:00.000-07:00

3 More days...
3 more days and there goes my honeymoon period.. i think i should starting studying 3 days later which is after world cup..
How i hope these 3 days would not end forever... No matter wat, i will strive hard for the paper that i have been waiting since sec 1.... I jus don wan to letdown myself...
Very long never mention Clara le.. haha... But i haven forget her.. She's still the gal in my heart.. but i haven seen her for so long... Or rather i should say i never met her before... tht time went Dunman High also never see her... So sad.... But right now the most important thing in my life is soccer... But 3 days later, the most important thing would be O levels... hai.. Don noe whether it would be too early or too late.. I personally think its too late thts y i only give myself 3 more days to enjoy...
Dreaming of after the Os... when i can go to work, and no need to be stress on my exams...

2006-06-22T03:17:00.000-07:00

i hate HomeWorK!!!( read this post, it will be beneficial)
Recently have been watching world cup, play soccer and play PS2.. Completely neglected my homework.. i really no mood to do homwework becos world cup fever.. Even when i free i also never plan to do my work.... this year O levels sai... How?? i also don noe.. Also didnt think much... but i will start to chiong after the world cup... don noe whether will it be too late but anyway i will really chiong when the world cup ends... If i really never do well for my exam den also nevermind.. the main thing is tht i try my best during the exam... A note for all pupils who doesn't do well in ur exams... U may not be good in ur study but every person is born with an exceptional talent beyond you.. Don be despair even if u fail... Because its not neccesary tht u will lose to the smarter people... For example, David Beckham who is very great in his football skills does not have a very high standard of education... I remember reading about a news tht said tht he was stucked with his son's mathematics questions... So WAT?? His one month pay is even higher than the salary for one year of the HODs of our school... Bill Gate, the richest man in the world is a school drop out.. Wat does all these prove... They proved tht education is not everything.. If u cant study but u noe tht u hav talent in some other areas, start to train on ur talent... Because those who are smarter in studies will surely be not as good as you in that areas....

Talent- some may wonder whats tht.. It's something born within you, or some call it the gift from god, that together with your interest and determination will surely get you far... Some may see no talent in yourself... it's not that you have no talent but it's just that you haven't discover it... Don worry.. u will discover it some day...

Many people are jealous of people who are generally smarter than them... My tuition teacher said tht the term for this ability is meta-cognition... It generally means smart... It occurs in people who can don study and score very well for their exams... Well, the only one in my mind right now is Gao xiang,... He is just simply smart... Even during major exams, he will be playing games before revising his work at the last minute... It is because they have the ability to absorb things every fast.. For example, in class when a teacher is teaching about new terms, the next day most of the class will forget but pupils will meta-cognition will remember wat tht particular term means... thts wat we call smart.. However, for pupils who must study harder to get the same results as those people are not smart... They are just hardworking..

In order to have a very great reasults in your studies, it involved 3 areas... They are META-COGNITION, EFFORT and MOTIVATION... if you are lacking of meta-cognition like me, you will jst hav to boost your the other two areas in order to score well... Effort generally means your ability to work hard...

For those who always feel badly tht they always lose out to those clever people, just remember there surely is an area which is your talent tht even those clever people will not perform better than you...

HOPE ALL MY READERS DISCOVER YOUR TALENTS AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!!

2006-06-12T03:47:00.000-07:00

World cUp
yeah.. finally the world cup 2006 germany has finally started.. the results til this point of time is still quite as expected except for the poland and sweden match.. from group A- i hav expected germany and poland to go to the 16 but now i think ecuador stands the chance rather than poland.. from group B- England sure will go 16.. the other tream to go 16 should be sweden.. from group C- sure Argentina and holland.. group D-portugal for sure and mexico should be the runner up.. group E- most likely czech and italy... group F-brasil for sure and the second place is quite possible for anyone in the group.. group G-hope france can get in and the second team should be korea.. group H-expectedly should be ukraine and spain... haha... well for the secong place of group F can be decided tonight... tonight at 9 is japan and Australia match.. who ever who wins will most likely be in the second place... if they draw then back to square..

For the recent match, the most disapointing matches are englang match and sweden.. England is the second team tht i like most other than france... But their match against portugal is too disappointing... they attack and defense is too weak... their attack is weak is quite expected beacause owen is still back to form and the robo dancer is not contributing but its sad to find england having some problem intheir defense..hai.. My favourite star of England, beckham, earn england 3 points with a perfect free kick tht ended up with an own goal.. He and his shot is just too handsome.. haha.. the other player tht i like in England and respect is Gerrard... His effort earn his team the FA cup... without him i believe liverpool cant win the cup.. nOw tht rooney is recovering, likely to kick in the next match against trinidad and tobago, i hope england can win the cup.. the sweden match is surely under perfoming... they drew with trinidad and tobago which is first time entering the whole cup... Sure they are humiliated... On the other hand trinidad and tobago felt so happy with the draw despite the fact tht they were left with 10 man.. yesterday night the portugese only scored one.. quite disappointing because Angola is not a great team.,..

These few days really tired... the world cup matches are really driving me crazy.. hhaa.. hope France can go far this time with the leading of thierry henry... but i think they can even reach the semis..

2006-06-03T02:33:00.000-07:00

Lonely day...
So lonely today... all my family members went to genting... Woke up at 12.30 today... so late.. seldom wake up so late.. think because yesterday slept too late le... cos recently learning bass guitar... for one particular song only la... trying to perfect it.. after i perfect the song which is lian ai ing by mayday think i will go on to learn julia the chords... my fingers full of blisters... so pain... but i think it is worthy la cause this is the first time i learn bass ma... haha.. but my teacher suffers with me too.. she also got blisters on her fingers.... haha... Thx esther... for ur bass guitar and effort... haha... In the morning right after i woke up, i msg samuel asking him whether his voice has recover.. if he recovers liao, den we going jamming in the afternoon.. but he going to have lunch with his aunt so cant make it.. next i received a call from Kris telling me tht van saw clara at plaza sing.. i felt like rushing there.. but i am sure tht after i reached there, she sure gone le... so in the end i stayed at home and practise my bass despite my swollen fingers.. i didnt care much because i am the only member in the group tht just master the technique... boon-knows every musical instruments tht we are using so he sure can manage his drum perfectly de... jason-a musical talented person who i think can learn his chords from boon at relieve... samuel- easiest job, singing, because he has got a nice voice... tonight there's soccer match.. England against jamaica... If england cant get at least a 3 goal lead den i am going to have doubt in its world cup quest.. tomorrow i guess i would be lonely again.. but i wish to go out tmr... i will see where and who to go out wif lor.. thx for reading..

2006-05-23T05:19:00.000-07:00

Teresa leave so early....
Today is our school talentime... our school has invited DJs from power 98 and one of the campus superstars... At the morning, i discovered that it was Teresa (sadded cos not clara but jus hoping a miracle to happen)..After recess, i did not concentrate on my lessons le.. cos chinese teacher never come...During chinese lesson. i went to the hall to see if Teresa has arrived.. But unfortunately, haven... During English, i went to the hall again to see if she has arrived.. i desperate to see her because i wanna get clara number from her... i know it is quite difficult but just wanna try.. i don wanna regret again... In the end, i realised that Teresa will arrive after the Talentime has started.. And sadly, leave before our assembly ends... WTF la, cos no one will be able to even say hi to her except the contestants... Unfortunately, i not one of the contestant because my singing is bad... haha... She came to our school in her KC uniform.. how formal... she sang 2to 3 songs... not too bad same standard as in tv... same hand postures.. but her facial expression slightly improved le.. no longer so dead as in the final... but once again, i failed to get Clara's number because cant even see teresa personally how to ask... hai... nvm... wont give up de... i will perservere... the same applies to all viewers of this blog... if u failed in something, don give up easily... Good luck for everyone and me myself... haha... thx for reading..

2006-05-20T22:41:00.000-07:00

yeah@! time for party

finally, everything is over and its time to enjoy myself.. Just realised that i haven been blogging for 1 month.. wow.. guess i really busy nowadays because always went out to have fun... After exams i went k box.. it was really fun.. i guess its the people that make the occasion fun.. haha.. we were all very high then... i also went to watch MI3... it was not as great as i hav expected it but it was still alright.. Still, i think war of the worlds is still the best.. i also went to changi airport... cant remember the last time i went there.. it had been ages... At the airport i saw a girl who resembles clara... She looks older than clara and a more mature look than clara... Honestly, she looks better than clara... haha... but of course to me, clara is still the best... mid year is over but now O is reaching.. Chinese O level is just next week.. i don't really think i can do well for this one but just try my best... Same applies to all other viewers of this blog.. good luck... this friday, i would like to go to k box again.... haha.. but dont no whether the rest of the people still want to go there..

Sad things of the week is that Arsenal lost their championship final.. so sad... but i hav expected barca to win.. the match prove to me that Arsenal is better than i thought... i truly believe that they will be the champion one day... Luckily, thierry henry,my favourite soccer player, agrees to stay in Arsenal... His future will be brighter than he will be in barca... Yeah... Hope either England or France will have extraodinary performance in their world cup...

2006-04-28T07:14:00.000-07:00

Mid year... 'Not fully armed yet'
hai.. after so much slacking, its finally mid year.. there's so much to study for each subject tht i dont noe which to start wif first.. these few days quite sian cos lesson are boring as usual and everynight either study or do homework.. These few days always sleep in class cos always burn midnight oil... hai... only left with 4 days to study history, social studies and biology.. hai...
Today went kel house... talked alot of craps and about him and (hem).. managed to find out a few minor details but still got a lot being left unrevealed...
i am going to study now... haha... no choice cos i haven started anything of the 3 major subjects.... Good luck to everyone for ur exams...

2006-04-24T00:04:00.000-07:00

Holy innocents' high.. (haha)
Recently, i just came to know that there's such a school known as the holy innocents' high school,.. so funny... i knew it from a net friend... we met in zhiyang's blog... she's from holy innocents' high and at first i thought that she was kidding me, wanting me to guess... later on, i discovered that there's such a school... haha... she's a gal... haha...
I have been doing nothing much these days except watching movies and doing homework... there's alot to revise for mid year.. but i have not started except e-maths which i think i have revised by doing the papers the carol had given to us... for the rest of the free time, i believe i will study science, then history, followed by social studies, then a-maths.. but before these, i hav to finish the panda papers first.. i still hav 4 papers to go.. actually i am not afraid of mid year.. and i'm studying for o.. not for midyear... scoring for midyear is only as short term target.. the main objective should be o... now i am in my school com lab blogging... waiting for 3.30 to arrive so that i can hav mey stupid new softwales and go home...
yesterday, i found out that the campus superstars just gathered on good friday at zhiyang's condo multipurpose hall.. the next gathering is at teresa's house... i think the day is on labour day.. haha.. and i believe teresa lives in marine parade...

2006-04-13T06:51:00.001-07:00

NO JUSTICE DE DAY
Is there justice in this earth? i hope yes.. cause i am not happy if only those who r reasonable can make the final statement.. Its not faiR.... not fair to everyone..

today i had my oral exam... everything is quite fine except tht my talking was too loud.. i didnt noe tht until xinyu told me tht she was distracted by my voice when she was having her exam too.. haha.. felt so sorry.. after tht my FuCiLy went to the classroom to rock the place.. haha... it was so funny.. there's me who cant sing high key and there's kel who strain his voice and also there's sam who was holding a broom, as if holding a guitar... so funny.. there was haoyan,gao and isaiah too.. gao jus sit down there and played his phone cos he has no idea on the lyric of the songs.. isaiah was rushing through his homework,as usual... FuCiLy, hope someday it can be famous.. haha.. AS iF>>..

2006-04-07T06:11:00.000-07:00

Oh mY .... BANG!!!!
so many things happened today... i felt a shocked for the events tht took place today.. at the start of the day, i forgot to carry my shoe bag... Leading to a hurry for me to rush to the parade square to search for my shoe bag.. i cant find... after tht i ran to the General office to ask for it... but still to no avail... felt so lost.. i decided to go back to my class and discovered tht someone had left it on my desk after i left.. hai.. felt being played but nevermind because the mastermind helped me to bring back to class or else someone would hav most probably taken it.. lesson as usual... Blah blah blah... get into one side of my ear part came out from the other.. before chem which is during a-maths, swee sin took one of my possesion.. i kept on calling her to return but she jus don wan... i understand its for my own good but.. i of course felt differently..
For chem test, still ok la although i noe tht i had two mistakes... after test, swee gave me back.. she advise me once again.. but i don tht affect me at all.. haha.. after tht i went for my cca.. I told myself tht i would not carry on the way i am anymore... because i believe tht she would not like it...

After tht i went for my inter cca games.. i played only a few minutes.. but nvm because in a team the most important thing is not whether u can play long ornot but whether how much u can contribute to the team.. In the end, my team ended up in the 2nd postition..

After tht i decided to go home.. while i jus walked out of the school, i witnessed a shocking incident.. My cadet, sec one student, was being knocked by a red car.. OH MY .. i immediately ran to him to see if there's anything i can help him... He was crying in pain... OUch.. honestly, it looks hurtful especially when i saw the flashback on how he was knocked... his pain areas are both of his legs, right hands and the right part of his waist area.. he was also having difficulty breathing.. I tried to help as much as i could as he was my cadet, the cadet tht i was personally in charge of.. How15-20 mins later, the ambulance FINALLY arrived.... he was send to the hospital... fortunately, he was only having minor injuries.. he was not having any fractures after diagnosed... He was not being hospitalise too.. how lucky.. haha... i felt so glad... Maybe it is the help of his thick NCC uniform.. Haha..

2006-04-03T06:19:00.000-07:00

ENd of CaMpus SuPerStar....
Finally, everything ended... It is a sad thing because i am sure many of us will be not use during the future mondays... I believe i will feel like something is missing.. And the saddest fact is tht i cant see Clara anymore.. Haha...

Today.... At the start of the day, i had my physical fitness test... we had to run 2.4km.. And the A standard for guys is below 10:41 mins... Before the start of the run, i felt tht even if i try my best i would not do it... Fortunately, during the run, my mind control my pace rather than my heart... After the second round, i really felt like giving up... i am totally tired.. But a motivation force told me tht i must get a A... Its a must... So i tried to run as fast as i could for the 3rd round... I was having cold sweat during the run.. I really felt of giving up... It was so uncomfortable... There were so many battles between my heart and my mind... And eventually, my mind won the battles and i finished the race with 10.22 mins... I felt quite satisfied and happy although i am not the first.. After tht in class, i felt a bit giddy and was having headaches.. I knew tht it was because i had ran beyond my expectation... No matter wat, its worth it.. and it is a miracle.. So next week, i am going to create other miracles for my five stations...

I felt a sense of lost after watching the celebration for the campus superstar.. How i hope i part of tht class.. haha.. But i am jus really cant bear for it to end.. hai... Haven even study a single thing for my tests this week... so i am studying history now.. But i don think a single words will go inside my mind...

2006-03-30T02:51:00.000-08:00

So Sad....
Hai... i am feeling so sad now... hai.. i heard tht someone, around 100 times better than me, has fallen for her... AH!!! there's really nothing for me to do... The saddest thing is tht i dont even know her.. nevermind.. i think i will do my best in my study now, hopping tht in next year i can go to the same school as her.. At the moment i think making friends with her would be more than enough although i know tht i have a crush on her.... Even saw her in my dreams.. haha... thts the only happy thing happen these days... i truly believe tht if i dont give up on knowing her, one day i will know her... i guarantee and i would try my very best not to give up... Friends, can u all stop saying unkind remarks on her?? i really feel veryu sad and hurtful for wat u all say.... i would rather u all give all those hurtful remarks to me than her... i would be more grateful if u all do tht... Today got lots of hw... but i really don have the mood to do... i guess i hav to relax a few days first... All i can think of every second is only her.... only her, clara..

2006-03-20T17:53:00.000-08:00

An Unwaste Holiday(21-3-06)
I had a pleasant holiday because i spent my time very wisely during the holiday. For past few holidays, i have been playing and playing.. But for this holiday, spent my time studying, doing homework, going overseas and commiting myself to a Taoist event.. The taoist event cost me 5 days and nights.. Its so tiring... i hardly get to sleep 8 hours in these 4 days... Monday, i went to my NCC training... I heard tht vanessa met an accident the day before and was in the Changi hospital... i was very tempted to go and visit her but my training ended so late, after the visiting time. Tuesday, i went to Malaysia... Wednesday, i wanted to go to visit Van but because Ying they all went to Bintan, no one accompany me so i didnt... Hai.. The taoist event started on Wed... i went to help because it was organised by my relative.. At night, i went Macdonald to do homework wif Boon and kel... Other than doing homework, we talked nonsense... haha... Thursday, i went to Macdonald in the afternoon with my cousin.. Surprisingly, i saw nai ma, xinyu, haoyan, samee and eugene... They were going to Eunos CC to play basketball so i followed them... Qing yi and Andrew were at the place already.. They started playing while i was at one side staring at my SS book.. haha... Hardly any words got into my head but i still tried to stuff every words in.. After tht i went to the taoist thing again... Friday, i went to the taoist event in the afternoon. At night, i went to the mac and study again.. Ying they all finally came back to Singapore liao which means i can go visit van le... Saturday, ying, yol, esther,gao, kel and me went to visit van at her house because she was discharged by tht time.. Her neck is still not fully alright but i was glad tht she still can joke with us because tht shows tht her mind is clear... After visiting her, i went back to the taoist event... Today is the most important day for the taoist event.. Unexpectedly, i saw my camp instructor, Jeremy, there... haha.. i was smiling to him with my expression trying to ask why was he there... But he jus smiled back to me.. Finally, the last day of the holiday, routinely, i went to the taoist event in the afternoon until the night... Wah... For these days, i had been reaching my house at 1-2 in the morning... So tiring... And i misses every soccer matches... wat a holiday.. and today, i never go to school.. haha..

2006-03-07T00:21:00.000-08:00

Night of the long wait...(7/3/06)
Reach home quite early today... Nothing to do although i still hav chinese articles to do... took a nap until at night den i started searching for some relevant articles... Quite difficult to find...but finally found one... i am waiting for the upcoming match tonight where Barcelona is going to take on Chelsea for the second leg.. I feel sio excited as the two giants once clashes together after their first leg at stamford bridge... I support Barcelaona for this match because there's Ronaldinho and Samuel E'to..

i am having a mixture of feelings on one matter.. don noe whether i should feel good or bad... hai.. someone from other school... think i don deserve it... forget it.. i am trying to give up.. trying very hard to give up... give me luck, guys.. although i donnoe whether i will feel better or more bitter after tht... WaTever.. anyway, i don deserve a good gal, especially someone tht good(good look, good background and good school)..

Next, time for my friend... To NIcHolas Toh: never try to insult my friend.. my friend never de zhui you so u better stop ur freaking crap.. don ask him for fight too.. y see him easy to bully ah?? come Bully me la!!!
To fake kel: Don try to use my friends' name to spoil our friendship cos it's no use... if u dare, put ur own name..

2006-03-02T01:11:00.000-08:00

Wat a moody day(2/3/06)
today is so boring.. actually the problem lies on me... at the start of the day, i am already quite angry and sad... sad because i lost the trust of one of my friends... angry because there's something tht i think i wasn't at fault.. maybe part of it, but i don deserve such a large lecturing... The first tht happen in class is e-maths class tests... 2 test papers given... the first one which i attempted first was quite chicken-feet.. however, the second one was very difficult tht i don even noe an answer... i felt so weak in maths... i really feel like giving up on "o" levels for every single subjects.. I didnt pass my days with full sorrows because i did laugh... but seldom... My "nai ma" was actually the first to make me smile... she always say jokes tht make me laugh uncontrollably.. thx for ur effort,"nai ma"... I guess i really starting to treat her as my "nai ma" le.. except for the "nai" part la, of course.. I was vey easily irritated today.. i think it is because of my hidden anger... I really hope my days would be brightened, but i think it will not le.. Mainly because of study and friendship problem ba.. i think because i am now very easily irritated, or so called over-sensitivity, i am starting to develop back my attitude problem where my face can switch almost instantanously.. dont noe whether this is good or bad... but i think it will be both for me.. Good maybe because people will not irritate me.. and bad because my friendship with them will sure worsen..
I think my next school will be ITE Simei... i think i can predict my results for O level le... I predicted: English language-D7
Chinese language-B3
Science -A1
Biology -A2
A-maths -B4
combinedhumans-B4
E-maths -A2 L1R5-19,L1R4-15
With such results wherby i can go JC, i wont... Because i will sure fail for GP... So only left with poly and ITE.. i am only interested in one course in poly.. and thts chinese media.. i need to get a distinction for chinese inorder to enter the course.. Since i will fail to, i think its better for me to go ITE because i believe there' no point studying a course which i hav no interest in...
Hope tmr wil be a better day for me... i don like to pull a long face but sometimes, like today, its really difficult to bring about me to smile....

2006-02-24T04:40:00.000-08:00

Wat a tIrInG dAy..(24/02/06)
Today is a inter CCa games day .. After going to Gerald's house to get our badminton rackets, i went to play soccer in the street soccer court.. we won with an alarming result of 8-1.. Unbelieveable... But my games for tht day is not soccer, it is badminton.while i was awaiting for my badminton games to take place, my soccer team captain told me to join their team and be a goalkeeper. After realising tht my badminton would start only at 4.30, i decided to play soccer for the meantime.. Similarly, gerald, Boju, and clarence also joined in.. As our team need them in order to have good results... For the first game, we played against scouts. They are quite strong as i experienced some fear shivering down my spine as the ball got nearer and nearer to my court.. But fortunately, my teammates defended well... some even slided with all their might in order to deter the attacking forces... when it was reaching close to the end, gerald("steven gerrard") , wearing his number 8 jersey performed a skillful dribbling of the ball by going through about 3-4 person. After tht, he made a pass to our team captain who finished it off.. We scored GOAL!! After the whistle was blown, we won with a score of 1-0.. After tht, we played against NPCC... we knew tht they were better players than the scouts so we were prepared to give our best.. But fortuanetly, we survived once against with a scoreline of 1-0... A goal scored by Boju.. it was a great goal. We played violently against the two teams, i admit.. But this showed the importance of the match to them.. As for me, i was quite slacked because i have strong defenders..

Next, i went for my badminton match. Gerald was my partner and we played two matches... Both won with the score of 7-2 and 7-1 respectively.. the second match, especially, was a very lousy match as one of our opponent was inexperienced.

After tht i went to play basketball.. when i reached home, i was already half-dead.. haha.. so tired... tomorrow still have to go out...

2006-02-23T03:40:00.000-08:00

YEAh!! Common tests Finally oVeR..(23/2/06)
Today i took my biology tests and ss common tests... Biology is quite easy, hope i can get 40 and above... haha... for ss, think fail le.. but i don care much... After that i went to play basketball at Eunos cc...

Die... I realise i did something wrong.. haha... i took out my new phone too many times.. i took out my phone when relieve teacher is taking over the lesson, and when i need to send or receive some files.. But i always take it out to wipe... It is because i treat this phone too importantly le.. all my savings are all invested in this phone.. Tht's y... sorry friends if u feel tht i am "showing off" my phone.. but actually not.. i don even feel good showing off my phone. i will try not to take out my phone tht often de.. but it is because new phone wat, of course more anxious.. Not to bluff u, if someone walk pass me, i will immediately take out my phone to check if its around and whether its fine.. Guess i am over anxious about it.. i will change friends... Thx for telling me gao...

2006-02-20T03:26:00.000-08:00

Nothing to do(20/02/2006)
Today is such a boring day for me.. hai... so sian nothing to do... Go to school listen to lesson, and being tease... The teasing is really getting from bad to worst.. all the rumours.. Stupid rumours of gao xiang... hai.. watever.. don wan to think and care so much on it from today onwards liao.. I really don noe wat to type already.. i guess i am pretty tired already.. I am really BORED... So sian... Hai.. How i hope i really have something to do except revising my homework..

2006-02-14T00:32:00.000-08:00

Wat a boring Valentine's day for me(14/2/06)
Today in the morning, so much happened.. i mean to others it may be just a few small and simple things happening but for my it is quite difficult.. i walked to school wif 10 roses today, quite embarrassing actually... haha... when i reached class, i expected Karimah to be in class because she is always the first to come to school everday... But instead it was esther, one of the ten i wanted to give, who has reached... So, i gave the rose to esther.. next follow by xinyu, karimah, swee sin, ying ying, yolande, yan xui and chrystal.. when mrs Ng, came into the class i still have to roses unsent... They belong to huijing and Shi ying... next shi ying arrived then i gave it to her... After that i thought that huijing was absent... i was thinking of what to do with the rose, should i leave it in class today or bring it again tomorrow?? i was sort of confused.. but luckily, 30 minutes later, she arrived in class... i realised that she was late... and also felt relieved because there was no need for me to bring the rose tomorrow le... During recess, i gave it to her... In return, i recieved a GIGANTIC pen from yingX2, a handsign pen from yolande, a creative "thing"from chrystal, a cute penis flashing phone decrorating, a flower and a packet of goodies from esther... Honestly, i don expect to get anything in return.. Anyway, thanks alot...
After recess, the chinese students of my class witnessed the most exciting free show of the year.. haha...

So y is my day still boring??

After school i really had no idea where to go... in the end, i went Bedok interchange to have my lunch in Long John Silver...After that i went home, blogging... Its such a boring valentine day for me...

2006-02-10T17:15:00.000-08:00

Such a disappointing day...(10/2/06)
Today is the release of the GCE 'O' levels results...even before the release of the results, i heard tht one of my seniors may get quite good for others but a fail for el... hai... i felt so sad when i heard tht... i was praying and praying, hoping tht he was not the one... unfortunately, the outcome was still the same... hai.. so sad... i could understand how he felt becos i had suffered the same thing as him before.. Tht feeling was unbearable and i really felt of giving up den... Moreover, tht was his 'O' levels, of course it will be worst... how i hope he could be guided in his future route.. i know he is now feeling very despair.. wat to do? hai.. i got a feeling tht i would be him next year... hai.. maybe i should be prepared for tht... So, i urge all my friends to study hard now before its too late...
Today i took two tests.. A-maths and chem... both are quite simpler.. haha... hope i can get a average of distinction for a-maths...
today, while i was awaiting for the results to be released, i saw yolande... she looked a bit sian.. Honestly, i had never planned not to give her... sorry yo... it was jus a fraud..haha... anyway, i had thought through so many times before choosing the ten persons... but wat i am afraid now is tht xinyu will not be able to but the artificial roses for me...
Frends, thx... i know u all cared for me, maybe u r rite, i am not tht hopeless becos i still hav a group of frends tht care for me... i know who my true friends are,those who helped me up when i am in a helpless state.... ppl like esther, boon, hj, kelvin and junwei.. i really appreciate it... having u guys and gals as frends, i think i am really not tht hopeless... give me 1 week... after one week i will start everthing afresh, wont think i am hopeless again... thx.. and i know other ppl like cy are never my true frends.. jus simple classmates friends ba...

2006-02-09T00:42:00.000-08:00

Wat a wet day...(9/2/06)
today, still as usual study.. But at the start of the day, my form teacher left the class for photo taking.. Next, i got punished during a-maths lesson for coming in late.. I was quite unhappy because my friends and i r only 40 seconds late.. Wat the hell lor... at first i showed my anger, the main weakness of my.... i know i have a bad temper... so immediately after i was reminded by myself to control my temper, i went back to normal... Next we hav our photo taking session.. it was kinda hot but better than studying... haha.. Mrs phee was here again... i am afraid tht she may is down with some kind of illness which cause her to be hospitalised... For what she hav done, god please bless her... back in class, i wasn't happy with one of my classmate, syakir, because he used to irritate and talk behind my back.. i decided to avenge by starting a small fight.. he was kinda trying to run away but was stopped by my friend, isaiah, who is also unhappy with him.. after i stopped finding trouble... then, he push isaiah,while the two of them wer struggling... i went up and pushed him with great force with the reason of "why push my friend" i admit, i am a bit too much and wrong in this situation.. but, tht was the first time tht i ever took my revenge from him.. he used to say provoking statement on me about my "vampire" teeth... actually, i don hate syakir tht much jus wat he said last year made me frustrated,.. the want tht i really wish to smack is bo.u know who i refering to ba,his attitude made me feel like slapping him.. If one day, i said or do something tht really angered me, i will sort it out wif him,i guarantee.. MIND UR WORDS AND ACTIONs, bo...
After my studying hour, it was still raining... so heavily tht i decided to take a cab home.. my good friend, boon, accompanied me... but he was kinda forced because he have to pay part of the fare... But after consideration, i will not charge him a cent for accompanying me because i understand tht he decided to take the cab because he don wish to abandon me.. Thx boon, u r such a good frend of my i will return the four dollars u lent me tmr... God,. becos of wat he had done for his frineds, including me, bless him too.. hallelujah...
Now, i don feel like giving one of the rose for yolande.. haha.. because i know she like roeses.. but wat i going to give them are not real roses wat.... aiyo.. anyway, let me consider about giving it to yo la.. haha.. to yo personally:" haha... see la talk so much... until so confident tht i will give u, now i may decided not to.. Blair!! haha... i see first la.hehe.."
Guess this saturday i confirm going orchard liao... see whether got cy's tht type in the other shops of orchard... hope sam free to go with me... haha..
Sian.. tmr hav two tests.. chem and a-maths.. but a-maths is optional la.. if i hav time to finish studying chem den i study a-maths lor.. or else, i don take retest le... tmr o level results going to be out le.. it determine where my seniors can go.. hope they get the value added award.. haha..
Anyway, thx for reading and visiting the hopeless guy once again.. hope everyone can hav a nice day.. good luck for my classmates , 4e3,except ju-bo, and friends for their tests tmr...

2006-02-08T04:09:00.000-08:00

Oh my day .....(8/2/06)...
Early in the morning when i reached school, i realised tht i forgot to bring my reading materials... Luckily, there were so much announcements causing the reading period to be only abt 15 min... I couldn't find any frends who has extra reading materials so i decided to risk by reading my history text... the next 15 mins was a fear taking one for me as the v.p was walking around checking on those who were not reading.. i was prepared to stand... but fortunately, i was not identifed by the v.p..haha.. next i hav a history test.. the test is a bit difficult cos some of the answers were not in my notes.. but the most fightening part is when mr. raj 'massage' me shoulder and ask if the test is difficult.. haha.. Today i hav ncc training, it was quite a boring one as we had wat buddy aid session which seemed useless to me... i also did not hav the chance to play soccer but nevermind.. the worst is to face the bunch of disrespectful sec 1s... i was frustated by a guy who talked back to me which i actually raised my volume and shouted at him... i don't like scolding, especially my own cadets.. but today, they left me wif no second choice... Didn't plan to study or do any hw today as i am quite tired now.. haha.. now, i am awaiting for xinyu to call me n tell me abt the details of the roses tht i planned to buy... Pls don be mistaken, i planned to buy ten roses.. Not for my gf, cos i hav no gf.. but they are for ten of my female friends... haha.. these ten gals are namely, esther, hj, xin yu, karimah, swee sin, ying ying, chrsytal, yolande, shi ying and yan xui... Some may wonder why only them.. haha,.. actually its becos either they are the closest female friends to me or they had helped and cared for me one way or another... These roses represent my gratitute for them and also to represent frendship... Of course, its provided tht they are willing to accept.. haha.. i hav a feeling tht ppl like chrystal will not accept it.. haha... some may wonder why didnt i reserve one for my ex... the reason is not becos i don treat her as a frend but its because she haven fully accepted tht we hav broken.. so i don think this is the right time to give her anything... Anyway, have a nice day.. thx for reading this.. yesterday i left out one very important person who is a very good friend of my.. he is also my senior.. his name is Jun wei, cldjun.blogspot.com... he is a very understanding guy wif great efforts for friends.. he always accompany me out.. He is a good friend of my... Hope tht this friday he can get his L1 R5 lower than 18... haha...

2006-02-06T23:51:00.000-08:00

Wad A dAy!!
Today is such a long day... Simply jus having lesson and some chit-chatting lor.. My el teacher not here today... so good.. haha... But sian.. tmr have history test.. hope tht it is really fill in the blanks.. But still afraid tht even if it's fill in the blank i also don noe how to answer the questions...
Today is actually quite a boring day for me.. Kinda of moody in the morning... but after recess, i jiu became energetic le... I want cy''s bag so much sia.. i told him to sell it to me, i don wan... If this saturday sam want to go orchard hav a look den i am willing to go too.. haha.. I guess i really noe how to appreciate my friends more le... cos i used to take them for granted... Let me say a few words of my friends ba...
Kelvin- Good..
Boon-Good..
Gao- a bit sexist la.. but it is actually becos of family background so cant be blame...
Chung yin-Used to look down on others... but now, so far haven heard of one sentence he made tht sound hurtful to others... He always say things tht very qian da... so i quite afraid tht he might be beaten up next time.. Hope not!!
isaiah-quite ok.. but likt to act gangster la.. if he is den i nothing to say la but he is not wat, so i quite worried tht he might get into trouble one day.. Hope not too!!
Samuel-seems cool but actually a very fun guy to be wif.. he cracks joke and do stupid and funny stuffs tht really make ppl laugh... He is a cheerful guy, actually...
Derek-eh... honestly, he treats he friends well but always not being treated well by others.. mainly becos he says things which make ppl unhappy wif him.. he also say lame jokes...
Freddy-a very intelligent guy.. but don noe y, when it comes to tests, his results not very good.. but don worry fred, i believe u can do it!!
For the gals in class, all are quite cheerful and friendly.. Eg. Hj, xinyu and es... While the netballers are great to hang out wif cos they really hav plenty of activities to do when they go out... haha....

2006-02-06T00:17:00.000-08:00

Today...(6/2/06)

I read a 3 pages long 'compo' jus before i came home... its actually a letter from my ex.. she expressed her feelings,what she had done over these few days to forget and also a few sentences of counsel... I felt like crying at tht time cos tht letter made me feel even more guilty... I felt like 10 times worst than a beast... Let me summarise wat i hav done to this gal... at first, i help a to pull out a knife tht had been hurting her for so long.. Allowing her to enjoy... 3 months later, i use another sharper and push it into her wound wif greater force... Now, she is left alone to pull out tht knife.. even if tht knife is being pulled out, a deep scar will be left behind..

2006-02-05T03:26:00.000-08:00

match prediction... i guess tht today's liverpool vs chelsea match will be a draw... don believe?? lets see.. haha...

2006-02-05T02:11:00.000-08:00

Thx for visiting tHe hOpeLeSS gUy..
Maybe u r a bit curious y i call myself a hopeless guy...
I don mind sharing wif u...
Previously, i had a girlfriend... Both of us felt tht we could ever survive wifout each other.... but i was wrong.. 3 months after we were together, the day of ArMAgEDDoN finally came.. Becos of plenty of differences in our lifestyles, we have little things in common... Leading to no communication, starting of 2006.. Finally, my feling for this angel faded away.. To prevent any dragging on leading to deeper hurt, i decided to call it to an end... we brokE... I felt so sorry for this gal... i really owed her too much... i always asked myself, if i am given the chance to go back to the past, would i make this decision again?? I admit tht we hav great and unforgettable moments together,.. But for her sake, to prevent her smile to change to sobbering, i guess i would not choose to start this relationship...

I aM a jErK, dIdn't I???
Honestly, i feel tht i am one.. One of my frineds told me tht i dont noe wat is love.... i denied... i do noe wat love is, but i don noe how to appreciate love.. Its all my fault...

So lonely.. and so hopeless... how i hope tht can amend my wrong which is impossible.. Anyway, thx for reading this..

About MyselF

I am a soccer fan.. currently, a fan of ArSEnal... haha..
I am a fan of jay chou
My hobbies are all kinds of sports
I enjoy playing soccer the most...
i like eating and sleeping
i am a fan of final fantasy 8
i like ppl calling me squall.. haha...
i am 16 this year.. facing the stress for O level...
i would only choose to go either temasek Jc or Singapore poly after graduation..
I would like to be a director in future....
I am in Damai secondary school 4e2 now...
My cca is Ncc... holding a rank of staff sergeant....
My favourite japanese singers are Ayumi hamasaki and BoA..

Today's sunday... I slept at 4.. woke up at 9.. after went to tuiton... after tht, i went to tampines ,all wif my friend... we walked around and chatted... after i went home.. do hw.. waiting for the coming match of LiverPool vs Chelsea...

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